Life is tough 機會命運

I hate to admit it. I have always remained very positive and believed everything happens in the best possible way. Only until now, things are sort of messed up and the chances of the road taken or not becomes very crucial, as I age and as I need to become more independent of my own bills and future life planning, but still, I kept reminding myself what seems like a disaster and what hurts the most now might be the most valuable things in the future.

But apparently my appeal letter worked out well. It’s a late justice and couldn’t be more late. The whole system is stupid and unfair, there’s a huge value gap between countries and obviously, when we apply to something on a different continent, we need to apply our rules to their rules. It’s not so obvious for them to see however, because something they may value that I have is not valued in my country and therefore they cannot see the values that I hold applies to theirs, so the best way out is to apply to both rules. Which doubles the difficulty, but unfortunately, that’s how it is. If one doesn’t confine to the rules, chances are that you are not to be seen.

What can I learn from this? I should stop being naive and believe the road will straighten itself as I cross the path.

Sometimes I am very naive, because that’s when you become open minded to try and to give yourself the ability to fail as well. Which I think is valuable because that’s when something you want really happens.

But naive come with a cost and a price, and I come to realize naive is for those who have the capital to. Which is more and more so as the income gap is increasing not only within the country but also across different continents and across different countries. And naive is only for those who are rich enough to. I cannot be that do whatever I want anymore. I need to count and need to take up the responsibility. Sad and realistic as it is and as I have never been, I still need to face it.

Life is tough. But you will be stronger after you fight against it and make a difference to benefit others. Keep carry on, hold to your ground.


A long time ago paper…how long is mystery

  1. It’s pure boring
  2. You can’t endure another minute.

I thought I belong to the first one, but truly, there is no idol or motivation for me to follow upon. I can’t see where I am ending up.

Whatever pain means nothing when you are going your own path, and it doesn’t matter where you will land on on the path.

Show your determination and no one will stop you

If you are not painful enough, you are not gaining either.


Love yourself


send the data visualization link

Do it take the chances. 不是對自己負責的問題

Motivation is difficult to find, making it visible is easier.

Give yourself time limit to decide things


Go far, go together

Making decisions is never easy

As much as I found myself once again lost amidst memories and the future and where I am now.

I reminded myself again why I am here, I realized in order to fully enjoy. I needed something more concrete, a more concrete idea of the future and myself, my role in this research. And enjoy each and every step I take. Keep moving and keep working with a good imagination and future framework of what I can be of.

Life is not the moments of breath you take, it’s the moments that take your breath away.

It’s not easy and I think more and more, but not necessarily a bad thing.

The meaning of failures and ambiguity

The rich should always be aware of their privileged lives. A thought that suddenly popped out when I saw people writing on fb and social media.

I am on the way of experiencing failures and being constantly tested for my resilience. Isn’t this also a privilege? Have the chance to experience failure and toughness, knowing that it can all change someday. Knowing that we have choices and chances.

Well, it can all seem gloom and hopeless at some point, and one can experience the darkest moments and depression. But, luckily, we have each other fighting together. This may be the one chance of a lifetime. We are doing what we are supposed to do at our age, only slightly bitter than those at a better position. But what is there to be envious of?

Would you take someone else’s life instead? Or the easier path you could have taken? No, I’d say. I’d still take the chances, and the winded road, just because I know I can. I know there’s something better waiting for me at the end of the road. If it’s not better, it’s not the end!

Trading with happiness?

















Maybe meditate and cleaning up the room, buying a plant is a good first step.

Once in a lifetime…another kind

My wisdom tooth-removal surgery experience.




This would possibly be the most practical article on my blog.





2. 拔右智齒牙根



3. 拔左智齒牙冠




4. 拔左智齒牙根

到了可以拔的時候,又拖了兩週…要拔的當天來不及刷牙,因此跟家牙實習醫生反應沒有刷牙,因為拔牙前要先到家牙科去把矯正器拆掉,實習醫生說沒關係,但是也沒幫我清理,我就問能否幫我洗牙,他就說幫我局部清,也就是要拔牙的那邊,但是我自覺手術後應該是會痛到無法刷牙,直接睡覺,就要求手術前先讓我刷個牙(還好我有帶牙刷來)。刷完牙後就手不停顫抖,超害怕。想盡量拖延做好心理準備….有了以前的經驗,要不害怕都難。但手術時還是一直跟自己講不要害怕,勇敢一點,把緊皺的眉頭鬆開,但是雙腳的肌肉倒是很老實的用力縮緊,彷彿隨時要面對緊急狀態逃跑 lol

前往口腔外科後,跟護士說我牙根上穿洞的鐵絲要拔牙時拿掉,因為肉長出來了,無法在家牙科處理。後來簽名、簽名、簽名同意手術,就開始了,手術前超希望有人可以陪著我,可以讓我牽著手。由於有了上次拔牙冠實習醫生沒有告知要打麻醉的經驗,讓我嚇個半死,我就有主動請實習醫生要打麻醉時告知。實習醫生也就很親切一如往常的告知。一切都可預期。後來手術中間,聽到主治醫生說這個拉太久了,骨頭長太好,(心裡OS:那我每兩個禮拜回診是假的嗎orz) 感覺到他大力挖牙齒出來,跟實習醫生說不要拖太久,頭又在晃的感覺,當下就覺得天哪,又要拖很久才會康復了…後來半個小時就好了,這次算快的了。




Finally, and most importantly, my teeth will behave well till I die after all those suffering.







If there was one thing I had to choose not to give up on, it would be imagination.

And as I had always believed is important: I will always go back whenever I had the time to is to remind myself why I am where I’m at.

I read about a friend putting on her social media the other day what Einstein had to say about imagination and it’s such an awakening bell. Because imagination is vital no matter what you are doing.

Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited, whereas imagination embraces the entire world, stimulating progress, giving birth to evolution. It is, strictly speaking, a real factor in scientific research.


Learn the tools and materials, and see what you can do with them.


A happy man is too satisfied with the present to dwell too much on the future.


Which I really think I need more patience now. I should not dwell too much on the future while I can’t even live the present well. Which is not how a happy man should live like.

[I do not] carry such information in my mind since it is readily available in books. …The value of a college education is not the learning of many facts but the training of the mind to think.


Sometimes seeing how people think reminds you of why they are doing what they do.