What a year – thanks 2016

What a year it was.

It has been unlucky in all possible ways. It has stroke me hard in all possible aspects. Even towards the end of it. I cannot stop worrying what may pop up.

Being rejected from schools, being told that I am incapable of it, being bashed by IELTS twice, had the most painful wisdom tooth surgery, went back to Europe and…… back. Basically everything that ever mattered didn’t go right.

 

But it’s worthwhile and taught me hard lessons.

Never predict anything. Nothing is predictable. You only get the ball and throw it. Just do. This will also reduce the useless fear that’s always there.

Rejection is normal. It will be fine. It doesn’t mean you are the only problem but it may also mean you are not humble enough……

Giants are big because they have gone through bad things as such. So don’t worry, but be grateful that these unpleasant things and feelings fell upon you at a relatively young age. Perhaps one day you will thank it.

 

Let’s count some of the good stuff…… Been brave to speak up for my own feelings, made a bold move, got a driver’s license, learned to do makeup properly, cared for friends, made new friends, re-thought about the possibilities I had in life and could jump out of the loop, found a balance between exercise and life, took things easier (most of the time), became more responsible… Not bad, eh?

 

Goodbye the 24th to 25th year old me who is down in history now.

You did your round. Now the 25th to 26th will carry on the race and hopefully, hopefully, with the lesson learned, next attempt will be a bit more satisfying.

政治文

打了半天還是不敢發在臉書上,
雖然身為外交系學生,我卻蠻害怕談政治的,只好縮回自己的小地盤發表淺見,也許將來有新想法再加以修改。
感覺二十年的人生就是在親眼見證台灣急轉直下的政治上的角色..
小時候在國外會稱自己是Chinese,因為也講中文國名又是ROC一切合理,後來感覺越來越不對勁,開始只叫自己Taiwanese,最切身感受是高中時學校的體育班國手出國參賽在泰國國旗被搶。然後眼看著所有中文標示逐漸從中華民國國旗變成中國國旗~繁體字變簡體字,這些都還算合理,畢竟中國崛起人也爆炸多,但是到現在看到青天白日滿地紅出現在非台灣地區就興奮得要死,會覺得是種禁忌的心態轉變已不可同日而語,也感謝媒體的大肆渲染。覺得一個國家在國際上的地位也多多少少會影響到一國國民在國外的自信度。希望有天可以跳脫這種政治框架與形式找到另一種牢靠的驕傲,軟實力或者真的值得我們身為一個群體而驕傲的事。